The Conservatives have to go

 I don't know what to feel about the overturning of Roe v Wade.  I have lived with my decision to terminate a pregnancy for over 40 years.  And now that option is not available to women as of today.  I am scared for my country, for my family, for me.  

My country is moving further and further to the right.  I feel that soon, probably 2024, we will be living in an authoritarian, white fascist, gun toting country.  I am so afraid that I will be persecuted as an enemy of the state because I am an avowed Democrat.  This move by the right just scares me.  I am glad I am at the end of my life because I don't think I would want to be living here if I were younger.  

This move by the socalled conservatives to move everything to conform to their moral code is beyond bad.  I have friends that as of today, I have cut out of my life.  If they call, I won't answer, if they text, I wont reply, if they come by, I won't answer the door.  These are friends I have had for 30 years, but they voted for the orange pussbucket and his ilk and they are proud of themselves and the havoc and chaos they have brought forward all in the name of moving this country back to 1880.  As such, I have no place in my life for people who think their moral code is to disseminated for all to follow.  I am worried for my nephew and his husband and their 2 daughters.  If these fanatics aren't stopped, his marriage and their adoptions will be null and void and those girls will be ripped away from their dads.  (I want to call my sister and tell her that her voting R all these years is about to ruin her family).  

I already have anxiety, insomnia, I worry about everything, so this worry about how the right and conservatives are destroying this country.  They will destroy everything until the Constitution is burned and we are looking into the eyes of the devil himself because the right/conservatives have burned the laws in favor of theocratic government.  

Please forgive the hit and miss subjects, but I can't get my mind to not go in 40 different directions.  I will have a hard time sleeping, at least for the foreseeable future.  

I want to move to a more BLUE state, but I don't want to give up this small plot of land, but if we move (rent a place) I want our belongings to be moved to a storage facility because I don't trust the dopeheads that have moved into the neighborhood.  I am so done with this state.  And I am worried about the erosion of my rights to my life, my privacy, my own moral standard.

Here we go; I have seen my brother and sister-in-law and made my amends to them. And it was accepted with such grace that I was and still am humbled.

I seem to have a much better relationship with my sister since my stay at her home and we discussed a lot of things that not only came up in therapy, but that I have wanted to know for a long time.

Politically, I am about to dump most of the local people that I call friends ---  I mean who the hell thinks the government should be responsible for the manufacture and distribution of baby formula. ?  And who the hell thinks the government has the power to set gas prices? Or oil prices?  These people who bitch that they don't want the government in their lives, telling them what to do, but when there is a national shortage due to supply chain problems, 1 company manufacturing from 1 plant, a near monopoly by said company on the manufacture, bacteria outbreak at said factory bringing production to a complete halt, hoarding by people at the beginning of the pandemic.  These are the reasons for baby formula shortages; the government has nothing to do with it.

Like the gas prices -- not one of these idiots say a f'ing thing about Chevron posting a $9,000,000,000.00 that is $9Billion PROFIT, NOT revenue, PURE PROFIT. But not a one of these ignorant sob's say anything about Chevron/XOM/Valero gouging the F&^% out of Americans.  Not one of them will be seen at the refinery gates protesting that.  But oh, oh, oh the government needs to do something about this --- LIKE WHAT?  The government doesn't set the price of oil or gas.  Why aren't they bitching to OPEC considering their boy, Jared, is such good buddies with MBS.  Maybe he can talk MBS into lowering the price of oil.?  But to blame or to place blame on government shows how much one doesn't know about how the government works.  

I have had it with these MAGA, right-wing nutjobs, hell even far right republicans, with all of them.  If they want God in our secular institutions, let them go live in Iran.  They have all kinds of theocratic institutions.  We don't need that crap here.

They want only white people to have anything--- like the people coming across the border.  I don't see these MAGA idiots wanting ANY of the jobs that illegals take.  I don't see white boys out in the hot sun on an August day fooling with rebar and concrete on a highway construction project. White boy is sitting in an air conditioned truck.  And when was the last time you saw a white girl cleaning a hotel room?  No, I'm not going to suffer these fools well.  They are such hypocrites and wont admit it.